(Following on from my last church planting post – this a list of reasons as to why I’m absolutely terrified about getting into church planting…)
I’m terrified that my work ethic is pathetic and that church planting requires people who work to the max.
I’m terrified that my life will on be on display to an entire body of Christians – I don’t want to let them down.
I’m terrified of the responsibility of having to teach the Bible with the deepest integrity every single week.
I’m terrified of displaying authentic orthopraxy.
I’m terrified of loving people, especially those who tick me off.
I’m terrified of all the massive social concerns our country faces.
I’m terrified of working with other Christians who don’t agree with me.
I’m terrified of trying to balance out a humble orthodoxy.
I’m terrified of the possible limits to which my body, mind and emotions will be stretched.
I’m terrified of building my own empire.
What about being terrified of not growing quickly enough to become financially viable?
Its funny but at the moment those sorts of things don’t scare me as much as my own sinfulness. I’m sure that stuff hits when you’re up to your armpits in church planting – as you guys at COR are.
Thank you for putting that into words! You are certainly not alone.
It’s a funny thing at times however; I don’t remember Jesus ever calling his disciples to only move whenever it is “safe” to do so. Only to “Go…” when they are called to do so!!! (You should see my latest post)
I think to, one of the big steps (actually, more like a stumble over a hurdle) I made in my own adjustments to pursuing church planting in NA is that as a “leader” we have just as much we can learn from those who are apart of our community as we do in teaching them. “Why not have one of them teach on a particular gathering rather then taking the responsibility yourself!” It is amazing the spiritual insights even the newest Christ follower might have.
Just a few weeks ago I can remember reading Max Lucado’s book ‘God Still Moves Stones’, and he pointed out to my astonishment that the first missionary Jesus ever sent was the possessed man he had just set free! No training, no theological equipping. Simply the knowledge of who he was and that he was in relationship with him.
Anyways, take heart and have no fear! If you have the calling “Go…” and “Go your way!” and not anyone else’s!!! (Luke 10:3)